To Jenna

Dear Jenna,

I have typed and deleted this page about 10 times now and I just can't seem to figure out how I want to write this to you it's so frustrating- I have backspaced and backspaced and backspaced, and I can't find words good enough, but I think you will know what I am trying to say anyway-- you always do.

We have been friends since fourth grade and we have experienced so incredibly much together that it feels like I have lived more than one lifetime with you. You are the greatest friend anyone could ever ask for. We've been through thick and thin together most of the time, but even when we were too busy being mad at each other what we have has never been lost.

I remember one time, I think it was the summer after 6th grade and we hadn't been close in over a year. I called you up and asked if you wanted to come over. You said sure and when you first got there it was so awkward. Neither of us could think of what we wanted to say to each other, but then before we knew it we were right back at it like we'd never even skipped a beat of our friendship. 

That isn't the only time that that has happened either and that is something that I adore about our friendship. No matter how big the blowout (and we both know there has been some intense ones), or no matter how much time passes, and life changes once we are hanging out it's like no time has passed between us at all. I never worry about how it will be the next time I see you.

Over the years you have made me have more laughs--and laugh harder than anyone else I can think of! All the times we just made each other laugh just because we couldn't stop laughing even if it was over nothing. I'll never forget the time that my parents went away to Canada for the weekend and you came over and we (or more likely you) were making dinner and you were getting out the pan and I looked in the window just in time so see your refection while you lost your balance and fell backwards onto the floor. That must have been one of our hardest laughs ever!

As I'm sitting here writing this, all of our good times- and bad are coming back to me, and I think that's what is making it so hard to write this, because I want to write about everything! All of our memories! But I can't because if I did this blog would never end. So since you also know all the memories already, I think the best thing I can do is to keep this simple.

So Jenna, I want to thank you for everything you are and everything you have ever done for me. Thank you for being the most unbelievable friend. You have been there for me through it all- the good times and the laughs, as well as the times where I was just completely miserable. More importantly, through everything you never ever judged me. You always accept me as I am and I am so grateful to you for that! In fact, you make me a better person just by being who you are! I think it's also fair to say that you understand me better than anyone else in the entire world. I hope that we'll be friends till the very end :)

And because words just can't do it justice I just think back to the summer to the night where we looked at the stars from your porch and had the inside of your house groovin' and I know that that feeling and that experience is the product of our friendship!

Thank you so much for being there :)

Love,

Ailee